Relevant
I’m relevant and always have been!
I went to my 40th high school reunion this weekend and was quite shocked that people who I thought had no idea who I was were saying my name, first and last, and saying “It’s so great to see you!”
It’s hard to admit, but most of them were people who I have no recollection of interacting with. That doesn’t surprise me. I don’t really have a lot of memory of my childhood because of the abuse I was experiencing. I thought I had lived small. I was in disbelief that anyone really knew me and so my suspicious survivor mind went to, “Well, they obviously saw me on Facebook…“ So when I mentioned Facebook to one guy who I have no recollection of ever talking to in high school, he said “I haven’t been on Facebook in years.“
Hmmm… “Well that’s interesting,” I thought. “There must be some other place he’s seen me lately.”
But when the guy said “I always remember you having bangs,“ I knew I had no choice but to recognize that while I don’t remember a good part of my childhood, people certainly remembered me. People knew me. Noticed me. I thought that I played small, I thought that I hid from everyone, and worse, I thought I was nothing. A nobody. Completely irrelevant.
But it turns out that I lived big enough back then for people to know my name, to have remembered me. I was almost in tears thinking that I had lived big enough back then, I was relevant, and people really did care. I can’t express how wonderful that feels. How it warms my heart.
Still, a part of me is sad that I can’t remember so much of the me of those days, but I know that the more I go through and take apart the old memories and clear out the negative, I know positive memories have a better chance of coming through. I think that is one of the biggest rewards of doing the healing work I do through NLP in Hypnosis and EMERGE…
I’m helping my brain resolve and clear out the troublesome memories so the many good memories can surface. I want those memories. I want to remember the laughter, silliness, joy I know I experienced back then! And I am, little by little, things are coming to me. And I feel like I’m getting a redo of my childhood. What a beautiful place to be!
My clients are experiencing the same thing. They are releasing. They are losing that connection to what has kept them stuck. And what a freedom it is! I love that I’m experiencing it myself, and I love that I bring it to others. I’m truly blessed.
